Each year I write a reflection on the year to come. 2 years ago my self reflection for the year was full of depression and disappointment. Last year I was laughing in the face of disaster. This year I am optimistic, despite the pressure, to make this business work in a monetary sense within a relatively short space of time. I don't have the luxury of time anymore, for the sake of the impending bairn. It probably seems weird that I say it currently isn't supporting me personally but the realities of business running means that often any profit is skimmed off and pumped back into the company, never reaching my pockets.
Back in 2016 I thought giving up my focus on herbs made me not a herbalist. Here I am in 2019 happily selling off my dispensary and passing on my patient enquiries to 2 fabulous colleagues of mine instead. I don’t feel any less of a herbalist, just one that uses her knowlegde to make products instead. It took me a long time to realise I could help far more people through products than I would ever reach with one to one health coaching and so I feel very happy with my decision.
I know I will have less time to work, with the new baby, but I have chosen the word Potent to remind me to work in short yet potentised bursts. My perception of worthwhile tasks is going to be so much more heightened.
Along with focussing on biz growth I'll be researching the history of objects which have shaped and moulded women's body's. Objects like tampons, contraceptive pills and speculums. This will be taking up the time I was spending on writing (and finishing) my book last year (to be launched in 2020). The history of how these came to be and what their existence has meant for women is something needing attention as these objects are so every day, that we assume they are benign when in fact the opposite may be true. They may be the most insidious to our subconscious understanding of what the female body is and isn't capable of.
I look forward to absorbing those sweet, slow moments of simplicity with the new babe. It's always seemed to me that children and babies have a unique ability for honing our senses to enjoy the simple things in life. Sure, they also test us to our limits but as with most experiences in life, the worst can give birth to the best. I'm expecting chaos as much as joy.